Don't judge by the content.

Recently I have noticed that some of my friendships are in only one direction, which is not deal or heart breaker or whatsoever (because I love them), but I can not lie that I miss some of the conversations I had.
In my teenage years, friendships took important place in my life and mind, but now being in my early 20s I am not sure I should even write about all this stuff.
Following this direction, I have the thought that I may  be a bit old for beginning new friendships...I mean all this process of sharing common interests, finding common ground, calling, waiting to be invited out, trying to think of something funny, because let's face it-no one wants boring friend (which for sure I may be one) is very exhausting. 

And I am not even starting discussing my adult relationships,because they are even more confusing than my friendships, which may indicate something...

Take a deep breath and don't say.

I hate the feeling of being annoyed.
(No matter how pointless this sentence may look), I really hate this feeling.I try my best to understand people's motives, principles and values, but sometimes I just can not understand them...
I also try to avoid going into people's business, because I can not place myself entirely in someone's perspective and situation. However, sometimes it is just not happening. My perspective is higihly different from others' and I am quite fuming person so I frankly speak up my mind...which is not right. They have their reasons, they have their motives, but I just feel like changing it and make it sound reasonable when it does not. All this chain reaction: someone says/writes/think something--> makes me annoyed--> I try to understand their point--> I say what I think--> then appears the guilty feeling.

Conclusion: I  need to work better on my mechanisms which trigger the respond to annoying situations.

Nights are not for thinking,they are for sleeping and avoiding odd dreaming

...I don't remember whether someone have ever told me this or it is genual fact, but I repeatedly tell it to myself:

-Nights are not for thinking,they are for sleeping and avoiding odd dreaming.

You may think it is funny, but actually it is not. I have serious issues regarding too much thinking, a bit less doing and lack of healthy sleeping. Whatever I tried-does not work, no counting stars/sheep (wtf?)/imaging numbers/hot actors/coursework material/and...future. The last one should be underlined, but who cares,it is already imprinted in my consciousness. That's one of the things about my selfish-egocentric-trying-not-to-be-material-lame self, this word is buzzes me. It does not matter how much buzz it caused when you are in high school, it buzzes even more 2 years after your school graduation. The queston is... (should I be bothered to confess it?) - How to stop it.
If you know the answer of it, I dare you to share it with me. You may receive a cookie, or a buzz...

Don't get me wrong

Recently I shifted my attention to smart and witty books/films/everything-else-that-occupies-your mind articles written by smart women, who are not paid 7dollars or something on a word like Carrie Bradshow (who does not recognise a good book), which later she spends on shoes and on the rent for her fancy NY appartment. It is probably inappropriate time to start this rather entertaining activity, but my mind needs its 'guilty pleasure' in time of science.

(just an observational post between watching 'New Girl' and reading 'HelloGiggles' in a lack of anything interesting to say).