(So not) a story

It has been a long time since I have written anything besides the daily random tweets. I am certain that it's not a big loss, because, let's face it- nobody reads this self-absorbed-crap. I can't also deny that I secretly enjoy this little space of self-absorbtion. But let's focus here, shall we?

I was wondering how to start this incredibly awkward post: by a short summary of the current  ana past life events or perhaps some sarcastic note. Well, as you probably noticed I did neither of them. Even though, I am a fan of summaries and reviews, I could not bother myself pouring my heart out on a blank web page. It's not like I have never done it before, as you all know, I am good at writing about myself and my randezvous. But (yes, there is always a 'but') desperate times need desperate measures? And before you assume that I am going all-desperately-crazy here, I am not, or at least not yet.

And now, let me tell you a story about a girl...

There was a time when a girl wanted to love and be loved. Then she convinced herself that loving is overrated, so focused only at being loved. After a certain amount of time, the same girl saw that it's not so hard to love, afterall it needs courage, but it's worth it, as long as no pain is involved (or at least she thought so). But just like the rest of the similar stories, the girl thought that she surprsingly achieved it all (and no, I am not defining it-understand it as you find suitable).
However, time (such a good friend) showed her that having it all or half of all is not quite the same and not quite what she had in mind (and she had all kind of thoughts in her little messed up mind). The girl realized that people may change even without a clear notice, that they can change slowly with time and grow...Then, in short, she started to wonder whether she is from the 'bright' ones or the 'dark' ones (to be honest, I doubt she will ever know the answer, but she is trying to).
Out of nowhere, she noticed certain people, different from the way she did before...This inevitably changed the way she perceives all other people and eventually doubting herself. They say doubts are good, they give us direction and nudge us when we are not on the right one. But, sometimes doubts can be also tricky and makes us wonder why we do certain things lead by certain feelings or assumptions...False or right.
After the girl noticed everything in a different way, she felt immensely confused and started to ask questions about The Great Unknown ...

As you may already know, that girl has things to sort out and a lot to learn, but as I may know, she also needs to laugh from time to time and reminds herself that afterall, we all have doubts and feelings...and it's completely okay to do so.