I am not the friendship type.

Even though I am expected to prepare for my lovely exams...what am I doing now? Blogging.
Don't ask why,I might be unable to give an answer.
And don't accuse me for that,I also might be unable to care.

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You close your eyes,images passing in your mind,you like them or you don't and give your best to push them away,but most of the times not successful.But you still fight it.Because? You don't know.All you know is that you don't want to think about it,or to dream about it or your head to be place of nightmares for another night.Then you wake up.You open your eyes.And you see.You see the world,the same places,the same you,or not the same,cause it changed,changed by the same images in your head.Changed by...you.

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I am not the friendship type.I have never been. People have friends from the kindergarden,the primary school,then highschool,university.They stuck together basically from the 'crib' till they engage. I don't.It is impossible for me.The friendship idea is impossible for me.I can't be stuck with someone since kindergarden.People change.I change,they change.How am I supposed to be stuck with someone who will not be the same person or neither I will. People like their friends.They adore to know that they have someone.Not like I don't.I just can't.Girls don't like me.They have never did.It was either cause I am too different,too ignorant,too boy-ish,too girl-ish,too cool,too warm,too nice,too bad.It's all the same.And I don't like them too.For the same reasons.Boys,most of them are immature for the pure friendship,or even if they are not,well we just don't fit in any possible way.
I am just not the friendship type.
I don't mind it.I guess I have never really did.I like it this way.My own way.People don't like me and I don't like them too.But I want to help them,cause everyone deserves help...Besides our differences.
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