Will you be there when I am not here anymore?

I thought the wind would make me feel complete...
I thought the wind would throw away my worries...
but the only thing the wind did was to mess my hair.
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One evening-you wake up and you realise that the mornings suck,the evenings suck,that everything you did and remember from the day sucks. Even your hard work on the another stupid coursework.
I want peace.
I want move.
I want sunshine.
I want warm wind.
I want laugh.
I want summer.
I want...to keep myself as long as I can.But I lose myself,slowly and the truth is I don't do anything to stop it.I simply surrendered. Don't ask why. Don't know how.Don't.