To October

The famous quote ala 'If you don't have what to say, it's better not to say anything' does not really work for me as you have probably already noticed.
I never really have what to say or write, but at the end there is always something written or said.

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Dear October, or should I say 'why, October, why'?

I am not planning to write a poem about you, so don't hope.
You are a bit weird. I think we all can agree on that. There is nothing you can do about it. You start with anxiety and you end with such including cold weather. Then, you have your proper share of scary or should I say inappropriate clothing along with massive gatherings of people that usually end with hangovers and uninhibitted behaviour. But, hey, no one is blaming you. This can happen (and it does happen) to every other month minus the weird attire.
To be honest, cause let's face it, I am always honest (or I am trying to), I am not a fan of yours. Me and you have nothing in common. For me, you are just preparation for coldness, indoors and tons of sweaters. I am not fan of that as well. Nevertheless, just after 43 days of your beginning, I am getting a year older. Each year is different, but I cannot lie that this year is a bit more different than the rest. We both know it and you made it clear from your first day that you are not going to let me age easy or painless. But could not you wait at least a day? You have 31 days and you start from the first? This is not a fair game.
Above all of the things I am not fan of, disappointment is in the top position. And still you do not miss opportunity to make me feel it. Did your fellow September miss telling you about it? I did not like it. I did not like then, for sure I don't like it now. September was mean from the beginning till the end, but I hoped you would be different. Misleading a girl like that is beyond unacceptable. I am ashamed of you, October.
Besides disappointment, you also posed to me questions and doubts I am not able to answer. All I could do is just wait and fight, but we know that I suck at both. 
Please, October, don't feel bad for me, I will be fine. I am sure that you will do a great job as a month and have a lot of happy people during your stay even if I am not one of them.

Yours truly,