About me...

Just a lil description about me =)

So...for the start.Im 16,i will be 17 in 14th november.I live in small stupid town,and i dont like the people there.Actually i dont like lots of things.Anyway.Im weird,strange and a person who people will say cold if they see me for first time.For the simply reason that i am shy,introverted and cant smile fakely all the time when im with people i do not like.And,yes,I know its not something good,but i dont really care anymore.Some years ago,it really bothered me that i am not so social and people just are not very close to me.But i hardly care about this anymore since I realized that this is ME and i like myself.Yeah,i dont love or adore myself,like to love watching myself in the mirror or taking pics of me.But i just got used to accept what i am.Its good thing,i think...Anyway.Im TOO MUCH EMOTIONAL PERSON!!I realllyyyyy hate this.You cant imagine how much.Just i get bothered and upset every time when people hurt me.Escpecially when i have feelings to them.I just get into depressions and cant get out of them easily.I love to read and draw and to spend time with my friends.They are not a lot.But i TRULY LOVE THEM!Even though some of them think that i ignore them.I do not,guys -.-. I just need them,they r my sunshines when im feelings lonely.Because i feel lonely a lot...I just need to be loved and i know i am,just smth in myself still cant believe it.I hate school,i hate all students there and teachers.Just because i see loads of hypocrisy all over myself and fake smiles and emotions.I hate when the students beg the teachers to high their marks,while i study hard to get my high marks.Im just feeling not a part of it.I have low confidence,thats for sure,but im trying to change it. I wish to say that im happy right now.But i just i am not.I have aaaalll the reasons to be happy,and i think i appreciate everything in my life.Just im in not very nice period.This summer was a CRAP!There were very nice moments,and it wasnt very bad,just i got through health and emotional pressures and experiences and im trying to learn from my mistakes.I just try to get over my feelings and emotions i have in this time.This month i met someone,to whom i opened my heart.He made me love him.He made me think about him all the time,he made me need him.I dont trust people easily.But with him i felt as he is part of me...Im not gonna write about him and so on.Just i was hurted...again.And i hope its not gonna happen soon.I know that this is the life and that its normal.But for me is not since this is my first real crush to a boy,and i cant get over it easily.I just know that he hurted me and i cant forget.I hope i will,because i dont want to be like that every day.Well i know,i wrote really much things,but no one makes you read them,if you dont want.This is me,my life,my world and my mind.=)
I hoped you enjoyed your stay.rofl.